pravila_za_mechtateli | in the cold dark earth, no grave can hold my body down [Voice Test]

in the cold dark earth, no grave can hold my body down [Voice Test]

It had been a long shift with a lot of johns and more of Cheng than Kavinsky really wanted to think about. At least it had only been Cheng this time, but the reminder of him was a reminder of Ronan, and Kavinsky could do without that being on his periphery at any given second.

Ostensibly, he ought to be heading back to his apartment. No one had picked him up for the night, which meant he had what he'd made from dancing, and that was it. An alright turn out, but the tips had been smaller than normal, and Kavinsky just wanted a little more cushion. Not that, if he ever got home, he could do anything with this money. But it was a nice dream.

He was aware that someone was following him by a shadow shifting, but he just kept walking, humming a new strain of a song to himself. Maybe it was just someone headed the same way. Hopefully it wasn't Cheng.

Flat | Top-Level Comments Only

Voluntary. Poison probably wouldn't take that risk even if someone assured him it was safe.

"And the other one?"

He'd been listening the first time, but now that Kavinsky was naked, wrapped in a sheet, and he was sitting here with his pants undone, he supposed it didn't hurt to review his options.

"Pornstar experience," Kavinsky said. Poison was still touching him, gentle and exploratory, and Kavinsky tried to think about what traits were important there. Instead, he said, "What it says on the tin. Basically use me however you want. My specialties include deepthroat and a high...high pain tolerance. Condom's required. We use a safeword, because I won't say no to anything you want. Unless saying no is part of what you want. Then we definitely use a safeword."

"I don't hurt people in my free time," he said blandly. "I don't think I'm interested in that." He considered a moment. "But a safe word might be good anyway." Because he didn't know what he might do if he got too far into his head; too far into his feelings. Hopefully it wouldn't come up.

"Is there anything you like? Or are you just going to try to tell me what you think I want to hear?"

Kavinsky wanted to point out that this was not, in fact, free time. He kept his mouth shut because he was not stupid. He licked his lips.

"Not about hurting," he said. "About me being what you want me to be. What you need me to be. You don't have to hurt anyone for that. But, whatever you want, I'll make it good."

What did he like? He liked a boy slightly older than him, dusty hair and intense eyes and sinuous hands. He liked being held. He liked laughing during sex; he missed laughing during sex.

He said none of these things. "I like a lot of things. And I will like what we do."

Poison rubbed his forehead. What the fuck was he doing here? WHat the fuck was he looking for? "I want you to blindfold me. And if I call you about another name, just... don't fucking mention it," he sighed.

He shouldn't be doing this. But he was going to. Some itch needed scratching and he didn't have the drugs to make himself forget it.

"I wouldn't dream of mentioning it," Kavinsky said. He knew discretion well. He knew lies and truths lived too close together in everyone's chest.

He rose from the bed and went to a closet set on the side wall. There were costumes there, things he didn't care for. Finally, he came up with an eyemask. He held it up with one finger, and stepped back over.

"You'll be more comfortable on the bed." And, with that, Kavinsky slipped the blindfold onto Poison and supposed they were finally beginning.

Poison accepted the blindfold and took a moment, then eased back onto the bed more. He paused to kick his boots off. "Something between the first thing you offered and the last," he said, by way of making any kind of request. The blindfold helped, weirdly, take an edge off. He closed his eyes under it.

He waited a breath, let his mind wander further away. What was he doing?

"How was your day?" he asked.

It was such a domestic question, friendly even, and it hurt, deep under his skin. Kavinsky was happy to not have eyes on him for this. He had a suspicion that he was going to be a mess in his expression, and he was glad that would only be for him.

"It was good," he said. He tried to soak the accent out of his voice, tried to sound for generic. He climbed back into the bed and curled against Poison, straddling his thigh. His fingers smoothed through his light hair, and he leaned in to kiss his neck. "Errands mostly, until work."

It hurt; the voice wasn't right, but it-- it could be. "Next time you ask me to play hooky and take a bath, I might." Poison's hand slid over his neck and he turned his head, cheek pressed against his head. He smelled good... even if that wasn't quite right either. He could forget. He could pretend.

"Even if you say my hair's gonna fall out." A faint grin touched his voice, his mouth. He slid his knee higher, pressing his thigh up between his legs.

Something tripped in Kavinsky's chest. He kept his touch, his kisses going. Poison shifted his leg, and Kavinsky rode along with it, breathing against his skin.

"Gotta get you a better conditioner," he murmured, putting a smile into his voice, which meant it was on his lips, and Poison would feel it on his skin. "Like your hair too much for it to all fall out."

"The risk of bleaching it, I guess. If it falls out you'll just have to make due with polishing my head." He shivered under Kavinksy's breath, his hand impressively gentle one the back of his head, gently tangled in his hair. He turned his head more, pressed a kiss to his hair, his jaw.

His other hand slid down his back, grabbing his ass to pull their bodies tighter together.

He laughed, a breath of one. And then, Poison was turning. Then his mouth was so close to his, and Kavinsky sighed around the laugh, let it go quiet into a little moan as Poison hitched him close.

He wound his arms around Poison's shoulders and he dropped a series of kisses on his face, and then on his mouth. "I'd hate to see it all go, though. Better take care of it or I'll have nothing to hold onto."

He turned his head to meet the kisses, his hands gently tightening as Kavinsky's arms wound around him. "I missed you today," he murmured, right before he bumped into a kiss. Poison moved, rolling them so he could press Kavinsky into the bed, still careful. He pressed his thigh firmly between his legs, urging movement. He liked feeling the hitch of his hips.

Something in Kavinsky's chest ached. He felt for this man, missing someone else, and when Poison tumbled him, he went over quite willingly. He was missing someone too, after all. But his eyes were not shielded to the fact that this was not the boy he loved.

"It's okay," he whispered. His hips lifted, rubbing against Poison's thigh filthily. "I'm right here. Nothing to miss."

His mouth slid over Kavinsky's jaw, his neck, brushing kisses, gentle bites as he went. He adjusted their position until he was fully between Kav's thighs. "We need-- is the lube out?" he asked as one hand slid over the sheets. He couldn't remember if it had been pulled out or if it was still hidden away. But he suddenly needed.

The sudden shift, the edge toward desire, toward passion, made Kavinsky sneak out a laugh. He kissed below Poison's ear, letting out a hungry sort of sigh.

"Give me a second," he murmured. His kiss sank down Poison's neck. "You'll have to sit up, love. How do you want me tonight?"

"Like this," he answered, rocking his hips as Kavinsky's lips brushed down his neck. He eased back, reluctant but... smiling. It softened his expression. His hand smoothed over Kavinsky's thigh when he moved.

It wasn't often that Kavinsky ended up on his back for fucking. Most guys, especially ones that had seemed leery of the situation initially, preferred to get their jollies with Kavinsky on his stomach. He tried to remember the last time he'd done it face to face--then he stopped trying.

He kept close to Poison, pleasant and over-warm. It was easy to reach into the bedside table and pull out lube. He forewent a condom, even though he knew he shouldn't.

"Here," he said softly. "Give me your hand."

He held his hand out, taking the lube when Kavinsky pressed it into his hand. Poison eased back as he opened it, slicked his fingers. He tossed it onto the bed and leaned over Kavinsky again, brushing down his thigh with the back of his hand. "Guide me or you're going to end up slick in all the wrong places." He grinned.

It was not quite how Kavinsky had intended it, Poison slicking his own fingers, but he made no objection to that. When he started to move his hand, seeking him out, Kavinsky made a soft noise and reached down to guide him as was requested.

That smile ached through him for a moment. He made no noise of the anguish. "Right there, love."

"How many?" he asked, managing not to break from the moment. There were times when he'd asked Jack, now and then they pushed each other a little. His fingers stayed on the outside, rubbing, teasing after he was guided to the right place. He waited, intent and... gentle.

A very different self. The one he'd tried so hard to hide from BLI.

The teasing made Kavinsky squirm a little. He didn't like to think of himself as overly easy but, if he closed his eyes and pretended, he could let himself float away to another time in another place, closeness and care and affection that he could feel reflected here because Poison was thinking of another time and place.

"Two," he breathed, unsteady. He reached down and stroked his cock. "Start with two. You know how I like it."

Poison pushed two fingers in, slow and smooth. "You feel so good," he sighs, hips nudging forward a bit like he could feel Kav around his cock. Soon. He started fucking him just like that, fingers pressing carefully, trying to find just the right spot to make him squirm and sigh and gasp.

Kavinsky did squirm, and sigh, and gasp, in short order of Poison starting to fuck him with his fingers. It was more than he was used to at the beginning, but that was alright. Poison's fingers were long and graceful, and Kavinsky could close his eyes and just feel the sensation of it.

"Don't make me wait too long," he whispered, eyes still shut. It was safer, even if Poison's eyes were covered. "I need you."

Flat | Top-Level Comments Only

in the cold dark earth, no grave can hold my body down [Voice Test]

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject